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So yea pretty much the title says it all....

I screwed up yet again!

I'm just a stupid ball of insain retardedness that idk what to do with

So there was this guy who was dating my best friend and I guess I was the reason they broke up :/

and this was a while back just a little fyi

So then to make things better with my friend I told her I didn't like him while all the time I still did. So now I was feeling like i was ready to tell him the whole story and everything that happened. And well that just ended up blowing up right in my fucken face.

So two days ago he tells me he still likes me and at this point i'm like super dooper hopeful and I'm totally ready to tell him I like him. But me being the stupid idiot I am told him he shouldn't like me cuz i'm way to friggen confusing. Yea ik dumb ass idea. But truthfuly for a guy who has liked me for two months now i didn't expect him to get over me within the nest 24 hours of telling me he liked me.

But so yesterday I was at the park and i kinda wanted him to come meet me there but he told me he was busy. So then I'm sitting in this little fort thing we have at the park and i see him messing around with someother girl! And this is just the day after he told me he still liked me! WITHIN 24 HOURS!

Ok yes ik it was mianly my fault...I told him not to like me and i guess he must have taken it to seriously. But right now I am just a basket full of emotions and I had to get this out somewere. I mean yea ik anyone could read this including him but whatever screw it idc if he knows anymore. He didn't even really wanna take the time to figure things out anyway.

I really thought he was a nice kid. I guess all he is, is a lieing sack of shit. Well I'm done with it all. I mean this isn't even half of the story. There is still a shit load of stuff i didn't write on here. But i'm not gunna type it cuz for thing it will take to long and for another thing ik he's gunna read this and i don't wanna make it that easy for him to figure everything out.

I mean yea he would say you should instant message me or you shoudl txt me but there was so much to say that it would have been way to hard to say it all. I needed to say it face to face but I guess he didn't get the friggen hint!

Personaly I don't think he deserves any pitty from me right now. O yea and my best friend who dated him still likes him so i was about to maybe screw up my realationship with her yet again just for this jerk? wtf was i thinking! GAH!

Well I still love you people but I gots one more problem. I really enjoy blogging but It really doesn''t seem like anyone does it that much on here so i feel kinda dumb. should I switch to another site if i wanna blog?

Hmn well thanks anyways guys. BYES!

Caity~Lynn♥