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......so.....

I hate myself......i really really really really do....

i'm a shitty friend......my grades at school suck.......and i'm an aweful person....

I mean all i do is cause other people pain.....

would anybody ever actualy notice or care if i slipped away and never was seen again....

sometimes I wonder....

your alll prolly reading this and want to know what the storie is....

alll want to know the stupid secret thats tearing me apart and makeing me feel more and  more alone and lost....but the fact is i'm not gunna tell you....

the fact is you don't really care y i'm hurting...

you don't care who i hurt....

and don't care if i never sign back onto this web site and never write an entry ever again....

you just read this for fun and to gossip about peoples problems that you don't hafta deal with.....

go ahead go pretend you care....

the fact is by tomarrow you'll forget you ever read this blog entry....

Caitlin